Too many deaths, too many losses

I think I need to get back on my anti-depressant. I'm crying all the time.

It isn't just the death of my first husband ten years ago. It's the death of 16 close friends, casual friends, and extended family members--or family members of friends--this year. It's the loss of our church family, the new pastor's wife telling us (long-time members), "You are NOT WELCOME here!" on New Years Day. It's the betrayal two days ago by my sister-in-law.